My goal is who I am and if I lose that, then WHO AM I?

Search and you shall find. Well, that is true for some things, but not if your trying to find yourself. My search will never end because I am forever changing. My goal is who I am and if I lose that then who am I? This is where I am, now. I wonder at this moment who am I? My goal since I was in forth grade was to go to space. I declared, I wanted to be the first women on the moon. I said it as a joke more than anything, but it stayed with me. Through shock and dismay I found out that a women was already on the moon, but I still dreamed of the stars. It was to late to look for something new, because space was a part of me. The one thing that I never wavered in all these years was the love and yearning for space. Shoot for the moon was my motto and still is to some extent. I wanted to be many things,but I changed my goals as life changed. I thought of becoming an astronaut, but the strenuous program and my physical capabilities would not be compatible. Looking at stars all day (I mean all night) sounds cool, until I actually saw what they did. I can tell you it is boooooorrring, It's you, a picture, and a ruler. Once I was a freshman in high school I decided on my career using logic. I love math and I love science and that is how my major, Physics, was born.



Will physics be the results my searching. I hope!

The Lecture!

What do you do when grandma finds your condoms? You listen to the lecture and deny the existence of intercourse. It is eerie I was worried about her finding out my tattoo, but not this. Weird is all I have to say. I can't explain the disappointment she had with me.

Standards

I decided that I am a desirable women, but once I know this what do I do with it. I have decided to increase my standards of date material. I know what I want from a guy. The criteria: Must be a collage student, smart, funny and charismatic. I love men with large vocabularies, but it makes me feel inadequate. The only way to improve that is to improve myself. I want to take up reading and vocabulary building. Men with vocabulary flowing through them are so sexy! I just want them to keep talking while they are undressing me. This is why collage students are perfect, their young, smart and ready for fun. The guys I date can't be old, because I have this thing about dating older men, it just isn't happening. My age plus or minus two or three years is fine. Any thing older or anything illegal is out of the question. Most important part The guy must like and want me for who I am! PS I must like and want him too! Otherwise there isn't going to be a relationship.